2 week update

Last week’s goals:

1. Eat 2 primal meals per day
2. Set goals each morning/reflect at night
3. Blog on Sunday
4. Weigh on Sundays
5. Walk every day

Well, failure is the name of the game in the last two weeks. I set goals for the first two days and didn’t actually follow through with any of them. I need a better system for reminding me of my goals and also time management. I know if I set my goals up as habits and work them into my “schedule” (quotes for its non-existence) then I would be better at following through. I have read a lot of articles about different thoughts on time management and I know this is something I need to work on. I get lost in the things I enjoy or in my exhaustion, where I don’t want to do anything. I feel like the exhaustion comes from a lack of exercise and good food.

I’ve eaten a lot of crap since my last post including McDonald’s, Domino’s, Chinese, donuts, and Burger King. I’m not saying all of those choices were terrible, but I did not pick any of the healthier options on those lists either...breakfast sandwiches,  mochas, and burgers anyone? The funny thing is, although I was full afterward, I was not satisfied. Often within a half-an-hour to an hour, I was tired, lethargic, and ready for bed. Just based on how I feel, I know eating this way is not making me happy or full of the energy I crave, but it's easy and thus the pattern has continued.

My one win is walking every day. It’s not much, but it gets me moving more than I have been. I usually feel better after a walk than I’ve felt all day, so I know this is something I should keep doing. I have been having some trouble with my ankle the last few days. Seems natural, when it was broken two months ago and I’m still healing, so I think this coming week I’ll alternate walking with my bike. I may even look into a lap pass at the local pool. Then I can do a three-day alternation between the three exercises.

So...time to respawn into a new week. I weighed this morning. I’m up 1lb from last week and plan to take my measurements this weekend. My overall goals for this week are as follows:

1. 5 min journal time each day
1. Set goals and schedule for the next day, 3 things I’m grateful for, 3 things I did well that day, 1-2 sentence “memory” of the day, 1-2 sentence goal/schedule reflection
2. Eat primal for one meal per day this week
3. Walk, bicycle, or swim each day for 30 min
1. I’m setting a time limit this week

Thank you for joining me as I continue the journey to find my inner goddess.

I lost my way

Original post date 6/21/17 (failed to actually post)

Well...it's been two years since I last wrote. I can't believe how fast time goes, how big plans go down the drain and I end up exactly where I was two years ago (weight-wise/health-wise that is). I am, however, going to give this one more shot. I know part of the downfall in blogging I've had in the past is not setting a specific time to sit down and write, so here it is...my commitment...(dun dun dun) I plan to write down my goals for the day each morning and reflect on then each night. I will then create a blog post about that week on Sunday morning to be posted on Monday.

As I've mentioned before, this blog will be about my journey to a healthier me or as I'm going to call it the journey to find my inner goddess. Let me be real with you. I am overweight and I feel fat more days than I feel ok our good about myself. I eat crap when I'm down, have a bad day, or am stressed and then feel guilty for doing it. I have a lot of days when I just feel ugly and gross. Now I know some of you are thinking, "Wow this is going to be a depressing blog!" But the purpose of writing all of this down is for me to work through these things, to find out what helps me have a better relationship with myself, food, and others, and to truely find my beautiful inner goddess.

I should also mention that I don't want to be a "skinny" woman. That's not what I'm looking for. I want to be the best version of myself. Someone who loves herself and feels comfortable in her skin. Someone who can play with her kids and not be totally winded after 5 min (if that). Someone who feels confident and beautiful even when she's in sweats and a baggy t-shirt with no make-up on and messy hair. Someone who has a healthy relationship with food and doesn't eat to fight the emotions inside. Someone who is strong and can do hard things. I want all of this and maybe, just maybe, by sharing my journey I can help someone else.

Thank you for stopping by and let's go find our inner goddesses together.

-Chelsi